Yesterday was Father's Day. I tried to make it the best day possible for my Husband/Father of my 5 wonderful children. I made a yummy breakfast, the kids made him a t-shirt with handprints, got him some jelly bellys (his favorite), tried really hard not to raise my voice at the kids, and even bought marinated steaks for him to BBQ (not something I do). Although it would seem that holidays in general do not seem to make him happy. After being married for almost 12 years, I have yet to figure this out. I am thinking though that maybe holidays were just not happy times when he was growing up. He does not talk about it much. Not having a father of my own, does not give me anything to compare it too. I did not think I had any expectations, but maybe I do.
I read somewhere recently that most marriages do not last more than 15 years. Which has me wondering, is it really possible to be married and be in love for eternity. Given that I have had zero example of this and my husband's parents are not a good example of this, by any means. It seems like we struggle so much, with so many different things. We do the best that we can, but is it really enough? Will we make it another 3 years? I am just not so sure anymore what is in store for us. My sister does not go to church nor did she go to the temple, when she got married. She does not seem to struggle as much as we do. I know you are not suppose to compare lives. But I look around and wonder, what are we doing wrong? Maybe I try to do too many things by myself and do not include him.
Preschool starts up today!!!! Yay! Meghan needs it. She needs the schedule and the support offered by her teachers. Although she may be disappointed when she gets there, because it will not be her teacher she knows. She is already disappointed that she is not going this morning to school. She is turning 4 on Friday!
Thomas lost a tooth this morning, while he was eating. It was quite a trip for him, because he thought I put something in his food. He is excited. It is actually the first tooth to fall out for him. The dentist took the first two out, because the teeth were growing in behind them. He was brave that day and did not even cry!
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2 comments:
I dont know how couples do it. My parents are still together but they had hard times. I think there are pressures tearing the basic family apart. I dont know why the temptations and pressures etc are so hard in this day but they are. Keep strong. You can do it!
What a heartfelt blog! Thank you. Congratulations on the tooth. By the way I have a little girl who turns 4 in at the end of July. What fun and what a lot of work!
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