Loneliness

So today, this morning I was feeling really happy and good about myself. After a series of events, I now feel totally alone. Even with 5 kids running around and a husband. I could have gone to Relief Society for the birthday party, but decided that I probably would not have anyone to sit by and the food is never that great, so I did not go. So here I am struggling to fight the darkness I feel. It seems like when I get this way it takes longer for me to get rid of it. I have so many things to be thankful for, they are numerous. But it seems like the things I do go unnoticed. I am hoping tomorrow will be better, however if I can not fight off the darkness it may not be.