31 years later

After a stubborn start in Kanab, UT at 2:25 in the morning, here I am living in Cedar City. Over the course of the last 31 years so many things have happened. I have lost the only grandma and grandpa I knew. My sister and I are closer than I thought we could be. I am more attached to my mom than I thought I would be. I married a wonderful man who loves me, even though I am a bit crazy and took me to the temple to be sealed. A long day to say the least that involved a trip to Manti and a reception afterward. I have 5 wonderful children, who I love so much. It amazes me sometimes just how much love I have for them. I have a job that I enjoy and feel appreciated at. I am close to graduating for SUU. Even though the darkness overtakes me sometimes, I know there is a light at the end. In primary today during my lesson, we touched on the first vision and I had glimpse of what it must of been like for Joseph Smith in the scared grove. I was talking about the moments before Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ appeared to him. How it must have felt for the darkness that overtook him before he light. I realized that when the darkness overtakes me it is satan trying to bring me down. Although I do not totally agree with the speaker in Sacrament Meeting that happiness is always a choice, because there are times when I want to feel happy. But the grips of which darkness have a hold on me cause me to not be able to have happiness. I know I am a work in progress and so grateful for a family and choice friends who understand it. I am thankful for so many things. Thank you to all of you who make my life so rich!